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I never mean the things i say when they come out wrong....
I never mean to hurt the people I love but I do...
I never mean to lie even tho thats all i kno...
I never meant to fall in love when all I can do is hate...
I can never seem to make anyone happy, all i do is make them cry. They will never admit to such cruelties out loud, but I am the cause of their pain.
But i myself am in pain as well... I suffer here in silence. I die each and every minute. I bleed black, and cry in blue. I find myself lost and hopelessly devoted to the one who has broken me... My life is based on dramatics, this is simply one more...


I am so sorry, I never meant to hurt…

Have i fallen from grace? Have i becomce lost in an endless dark oblivion? Am I dead to the world? I have lost my way, I have done far worse deeds than anyone could ever imagine. I wish to right the wrongs, make things right. But somehow the only way i see for this to be is to let go of what I just got back... well i'm not letting go! Im holding on, tighter than i ever have before!!!!!!!!!

They tell you that you will get better, that you will grow and heal. What you need to know is: They All Lie!!!! The pain never goes away, the heartache, the sadness it stays, burning a hole through you, killing you.
How can you survive in a place where you are being held prisoner?
How are you supposed to move on?

YOu don't, or at least I never have. I have loved him and only him for centuries it feels like. My heart bleeds everyday because I know I can never have him again... he doesn't want me... I am nothing without him....

I don't know what I am to do.....